Bless Buddha for internet connection. I have been M.I.A., but this time I have a legitimate excuse. So remember how I talked about my wireless card died and Dell replaced it? Yes, it died again. Although, this time Dell replaced the wireless card, the mother board and the antenna. The issue still persists where my computer does not find wireless in range. When it does pick up wireless in range (for like 30 seconds), I can't connect to it. It's very intermittent that I could sustain a stable connection.


The last blog I posted was about the fight that Vasquez and I had. After I posted that blog, Vasquez and I made up over the phone. Some clarification regarding that blog is I made it sound like it'd been a week since he'd been cunty, but in reality it'd been only three days. It sure felt like a week.


Other than that it's pretty much the same 'ol story on my end. There still no or very slow progress on my promotion. I keep on having to start the promotion/interview process over at least five times now with five different hiring managers because they keep on changing markets. I've threatened to quit a couple of times with HR and they wouldn't let me quit. My thought about quitting and moving back cold turkey is if I leave on good terms and apply face to face at the retail locations in CA, the process may move a lot quicker since I'm not transferring. But if T-Mobile says, "No" then I would be taking a huge risk of possibly not having a job since the job market is scarce everywhere especially CA. Either that or basically get fired here because I'm losing motivation, hope, and reasons to continue performing. The longer this promotion process takes, the lower my performance has been.


I got to hear Timineri's voice a couple nights ago when I was driving home from the gym. I was talking to him through my GPS bluetooth. Yes, I finally got my GPS! It's so nice to hear his voice. People have been telling me they're starting to forget what I sound and look like these days. The more and more I think about that, the more and more it makes me want to talk to the people I love the most. I canceled my trip back home for our birthdays because I was given an expectation that my move date would be towards the end of July and beginning of August. I figured it wouldn't be cost effective to fly home for our birthdays then move back home two weeks later. Now the possibility of moving home is so far from me.


I'd been having more pleasant conversations with Biles more and more these days. It is he who text me out of the blue on rare occasions. The last conversation we had was pleasant. We talked two days in a row last week. I can't hate him forever. Just like with all of my other exes, who has become very close friends and important people in my life, there must be a time when you just need to let all that weight off of your shoulders. I told him about how I was at the urinal at the gym and my necklace broke. I'd been wearing our matching greek keys ring around my neck for the past month. When my necklace broke the ring dropped into the urinal and my immediate reaction was to stick my hand in there to pull it out. Within that brief 30 seconds reaction, I felt as if my heart was sinking as the ring fell deeper and deeper away from my sight. Luckily, I was able to retrieve the ring. I washed it off with soap then secured it back on my necklace. I sat in the steam room with Vasquez and realized that Biles will always be a part of me. I did not speak of that experience with Vasquez or anyone else, but I did share that moment with Biles when we spoke.


Speaking of gym, this is week two of me on steroids. I'm not "blowing up" like I thought I would, but I'm getting so much bigger than if I wasn't on steroids. I have veins popping out everywhere in my arms and my chest is getting bigger. Not sure if I told you guys, but I now can make my tits jump. I've always wanted to do that and I've never been able to until now. I can't wait to see how I look like at the end of the month.


The only plans for today is just chill, head over to Vasquez's house to use his ethernet cable so Dell could plug in remotely to fix my computer, then we'll head to the gym, then interview a prospective new go-go dancer around 7PM, and then possibly to Karaoke at Exhale. They may not all be in that particular order.