Howdy guys!


So today was an unproductive day. I basically slept all day. I managed to finally fix my ipod since after the update it got screwed up. I also did laundry and cleaned my room. My room needed to be cleaned so bad. I did minor grocery shopping without money. Writing checks without sufficient funds could come in handy sometimes. I'm such a bad example for you guys.


After resting for a bit, Vasquez picked me up so we could head to Club Exhale for an important mandatory meeting. It was a meeting called by the owners with no explanation besides all the people who worked on Friday Gay Pride needs to be present. It was a thank you dinner. They did some catering for us and even gave all of us some money in an envelope. I thought it was sweet and cunty for making us all think we were fired. One of the owner talked about doing a luau in July. It reminded me of the luau at Badlands three years ago when Marshall learned my name and never forgot it.


After dinner, Vasquez and I headed to the gym. Now that I'm trying to build muscle mass, which is starting to show in my arms, I am no longer allowed to do a lot of cardio. Vasquez is trying to slim down so he needs the cardio as I went my separate way to do circuit weights. As I sit for the light to turn green, I watched Vasquez worked his ass off on the elliptical. Vasquez was worried about having motivation and being inspired to go to the gym after I'm gone, but he doesn't need me. I've watched him blossomed and I'm amazed by what a hard worker he is. He needs to realize that he's all the inspiration he needs. He's living it. He's breathing it. He needs to give himself more credit. It seems the universe and preparing the both of us for this transition: Like riding side by side, but parting separate ways to our own destination. Like arriving to gym together, but doing separate workouts. Vasquez have became so strong and I'm so proud of him. I admire Vasquez from across the gym, I tried to fight back tears as I benched weights and marveled at the irony. I've been a little emotional lately.


After gym, Vasquez and I headed to karaoke at Exhale. We got so drunk since we ate nothing all day. We had such a good time. Vasquez dedicated "Away From The Sun" to me and I dedicated "God Must Have Spent A Little More Time You" to him. We were so drunk off of chocolate martinis that we had to head to iHop for food after our duet of "Walk Away" by Ms. Clarkson.


On our way home, we had heart to heart of how I strive to be perfect when I know I'm not and that I never will be. We talked about forgiveness. We talked about how I'm such a contradiction when I don't need to be. I'm just glad that Vasquez accept every part of me, event the imperfections and even at times that he doesn't understand me. I'm surely am going to miss him.